Tuesday, November 29, 2005
` 11:48 PM
there is a place in Your heart that im longing to find
wont You show me
there is a place i know i can run to and hide
wont You show me
show me, show me
show me Your heart
Lord wont You show me?
` 5:55 PM
freak. the checkup's on friday . argh .
mhmm.
i dont know what to say.
[grace: if you're dying to know who's THE PERSON, please scroll down and spot a name other than grace, samuel, vanessa, shuhua, alvin, sheryl, miss yee and wayne. mhmm]
the type of guys whom im really scared of;
- super shy .
- cos you dont know what to say to them, you might be like contribuiting to his volcano eruption in time to come.
- worse, you might be the ONE who will cause the eruption .
second type ;
really outgoing and stuff. but you dont know when he's serious and when he's not.
[that person is so painfully obvious..]
yea. sniffs- grace, i hope i didnt do smth wrong.
I HATE THE FACT THAT IM ONLY THIRTEEN .
yeayea, im only thirteeen. i know . i know .
Monday, November 28, 2005
` 11:56 PM
today's happiness seem momentarily.
im happy for a second and the next five secs i'll be sad.
mainly sad.
i cant shake of this feeling of inferiority. why ?
YES I KNOW IM ONLY THIRTEEN.
but so what if im... thirteen?
mhmm.
happy birthday my friend.
` 12:04 AM
happy birthday sheryl.
it's 12.04am.
im not feeling happy. ):
one year ago it was like this, too.
Sunday, November 27, 2005
` 10:35 PM
):
i hate to be dragged into fights or being in the midst of them .
i feel helpless, i dont know wad to do or say.
me: hope seems far away.
gracE: at least it's still somewhere .
let the first drop of water fall from my eyes .
` 9:42 PM
think speedlight camp o4 - my utmost for His highest 2
i wonder if i'll be as brave as the girl in one of the prayer booth's newspaper clippings.
the one who was shot for her faith.
` 7:12 PM
ARGH.
i hate myselfff. ):
1. for messing ushering tday up
2. for being such a lousy birthday girl.
[apologies to grace sam and vanessa]
--
dearest lingquan,
i got the message.
sheryl.
--
that was totally random. bah.
and heck.
shus asked me to usher right
van and alvin asked me to usher left
wayne asked me to usher left and/or right.
who am i to listen to ?!
so it was in a mess.messmess.
den okay, to those three people agn.
THANKS LOADS. i feel so loved.
mhmm. yeah. i feel damn paiseh haha.
and then. to all who wished me happy birthday though you wont read this.
thanks loads too.
): im depressed.
wanted to fall on my knees and pray during praise and worship but i
i didnt [you'll know what to do if you're smart]
i feel so burdenedd. and i miss leading worship.
i dun feel good leading in GMs though. cos i feel so.. small.
and yes grace, HE makes me feel inferior too. ):
one of the reasons why i dun feel good leading in GMs.
and i hate the feeling of inferiority.
im dreading full dress tml.
i hope ms yee wont kill me for the crumpled dress.
i wish i can fit into my stupid gown.
if only i didnt eat so much.
yeah.
i miss leading in cg though.
sometimes i wonder why i do so much.
Friday, November 25, 2005
` 10:14 PM
what if..
what i experienced on saturday was just an illusion.
i dont want to walk away from the specialist centre feeling disappointed
sheryl.
it's all crap . get it?
you dont even pray.
how do you expect you'll be well?
heck.
i dowan third dec to come.
what if i need surgery.
Thursday, November 24, 2005
` 6:09 PM
hi. i decided to update this more often. and change the layout. it's getting.. depressing
wait. since 28november 2003, when has this place been, happy?
no day. hurrhurr.
alrites. i survived like SIXTEEN HOURS of hour in TWO days. congrat me man. and it really works when you start AND end the day with a word of prayer. we didnt ytd and it was horrible. and yet today we did and it turned out well.. even fun! =D
did i mention, omgosh. hihs guys are like super shuai can! opps. dun tell anyone k. haahaa.
so schoolgirl-ish. lol.
and sgss guys are so... goodness. no comments. haha have lah, but dowan sae. =p
and that was the reason why i decided to revive this blog. haaha!
finally smth happy yea. =/
i've sorta got over the speedlight choir thing. i hope it doesnt pop up agn during the next ministy recuitment. bah. i love the speeeeeedlight usherrring ministttttryyy man. we rawkk. =DDD
heh heh. i love samuel and grace too.
another two persons who can come here when they're bored and see what i cant say in the other blog. [like hihs guys being shuai.. HAHHAA]
and i love audrey too! it's so funn teasing her and everything.. she dun get angry de lorh! heehee. i feel so meaN. ;p
singout. in how many days? six.
girl ;
me?
im just another incohorent girl on the face on the earth. singing's my passion, but i do badly at it.
and it doesnt help that some people stress that point to me too. it redundant, cos i already know it.
trying to live for God alone. still trying.
you'll find out who sheryl really is here.
wait a minute.
you dont even need to know me.
chat ;