Dear Diary,
i think louisa dun like me. shez in my cg. but it's like. why it's always lidat?! sometimes i see ppl... like.. so happy with each other... whole cgs bind tog... like so...CLICK lidat. for example a puzzle... all fit tog right? then got one extra piece, from another puzzle. so that one definetly cant fit right. i feel like i'm that extra piece. everywhere! cg. school. class. 'cept for ushering lah. i fit super perfect there. HA.
then vivien. AIYOO. she said i turned for the negative when i converted to christian. she ask me why i became a christian. she totally cant stand christian music [[not that i expect her to stand it, she say things like.. "avalon is so boring!"]] she totally cant stand anything to do with christianity. my mom doesnt like her, saying shez materialistic. vivien cant stand me, cuz i'm not really into famous singers...pop/rock stars etc. like.. if she ask me "you know who's princess diana?" and i reply duno, she'll "aiyoo! i cant stand you! she's SO FAMOUS!" aiyah. like who cares whether diana is famous. idc. in real fact i'm really not star crazed, and she cant stand it. sigh. she can only go to church when she's 21. her father is a totally staunch buddist, and a very strict person. even so, when she's 21, she's not going to church. i hope she's going to chg her mindset.
i got another avril to tend to. free thinker, she's a person who looks at black sheep. if she goes to a cg, for example, and find that cg horrible, she'll think all cgs are horrible. she claims she's an extrovert, and hates being ard 'kids'. how to bring her to church lidat?!
am i going to win them to christ, or am i going to lose them to satan? no, christ is the answer to all. he's going to have the victory. gone with satan! amen! =)